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00:00:00: okay bleaching is opening up the hair follicle and taking out the pectin.

00:00:19: wait it's cut season.

00:00:49: any fio melanin.

00:01:08: maybe this is also from past experience because i had this friend who like she had bleached her hair Literally all that stuff.

00:01:21: So I was like girl.

00:01:23: you would look so fucking cute With like short curls, and i'm telling you now.

00:01:29: But she didn't really want to do that which I get.

00:01:31: but Like...I don't know if her face is just so cute?

00:01:34: If everyone did it then I think they'd be so cute on here And anyway..and I think about myself Right now It's like-that Was actually one of my worst fears you know, deciding to cut all my hair off one day and then like waking up the next day and be like holy shit.

00:01:57: Like I have a very big spiritual connection to my hair And i feel it's literally roots symbolizing just ancestry and culture A connection with people that came before me inside of the way that I am now and the way my body has learned to thrive, survive.

00:02:28: And especially being native...I learn physically this year or something like that.

00:02:37: well i always kind of knew because Native American people tend have a million long hair but I never knew specific, like I didn't hear the actual words.

00:02:51: Like in this current body that i'm in right now.

00:02:53: That's what I mean whenever I say physically learned physically because I believe we know a lot of things metaphysically spiritually Primally Internally Digestionally you know Before he might ever learn something from hearing the words being spoken.

00:03:18: So and think about something really important to trust as well Because on my tiktok, I said that i didn't know if people should be cutting their hair at all.

00:03:33: But then you could say the same thing about fingernails.

00:03:38: but to me our hair is kind of like an antenna or a cat's... We are cats anyway!

00:03:50: Our leg hairs help sense different, differentiating like energies because energy is a physical thing and we all have electricity in energy inside of us.

00:04:03: This earth the universe.

00:04:06: And I think that our hair Is Something Of Like an extension of that feeling.

00:04:16: i still think That even if you can solve intuition and choose not to You know Keep your hair long.

00:04:25: You know what I mean?

00:04:26: Like my.

00:04:27: Anyway, you get the point i'm just saying like when I said that was kind of what I was thinking about because it's like You know in a lot of reeducation camps they would cut off indigenous people's hair trying to quote-unquote take away The home who there are and then still the white man until at least also body remembers and also referring back to whenever they used to try and break people's spirits in Africa, the slave dungeons of Ghana before sending them to America to be tortured and imprisoned.

00:05:15: And then labor encampments.

00:05:23: so I think that was what it feels like and the foundation of that philosophy.

00:05:41: And at the same time, people in Africa sport short hair as well like... That's a very common thing for people to cut off about two-like quarter inch of their hair until there is a quarter inch left and thats beautiful!

00:06:06: Notice how they're still not bald Don't know.

00:06:10: I just think that having a little bit of hair is cool.

00:06:14: But if you can grow here like this, it's no beef and i think That You Just Have intuition?

00:06:20: That Is Probably Stronger To Accommodate.

00:06:24: For That Y'all I'm Feeling Weird.

00:06:30: Let Me Try And Think.

00:06:31: I had Cream Cheese Today.

00:06:36: Cream cheese.

00:06:41: I had Cookie.

00:06:42: I had Two Cookies.

00:06:44: Yummy Yummy.

00:06:46: My tummy Just Kind Of Hurts.

00:06:53: What Are They Like?

00:06:54: I Would Have Chocolate.

00:06:57: I ate some of those pears, but they weren't moldy.

00:07:09: Maybe this is from an hailing mold because i had some banana bread and then the other day I was cleaning out some banana bread that got moldy, but it didn't have worms yet.

00:07:24: So like let me just go ahead and handle this because i'm putting off dishes But kinda just a little bit of a lump inside.

00:07:51: so I just gave myself a little break.

00:07:55: Most are the worms who found their new life in The Garbage Trust & Believe And I leave them plenty of snacks All like scraps stuff you know I dropped on before or something That goes into the trash for a little critter, eat later.

00:08:16: Or just for mold?

00:08:17: Mold is not bad it's just something that I think made me feel a bit sick today and yesterday And maybe it's also just a little pressure.

00:08:30: It's going to rain soon.

00:08:31: like the clouds were so big yesterday When i was a little dehydrated I said well no, a little baths are very dehydrated because when on walk at the beginning of this whole heat stroke business I didn't know there was supposed to be heat stroke.

00:08:46: But like, i had to eat and like...I had a fit of my system but like..i really should have gotten the peanut butter crackers or something at the gas station which we did not do out on the water Which is nice!

00:08:56: But....I was extremely exhausted Like to point where ive got a headache And the headaches literally stuck with me even after I woke up.

00:09:09: So that's very dehydrated.

00:09:11: so I've just been trying to have high-eating fruit food I guess, not mindfully.

00:09:19: Today i've been eating hydrating foods like apples and stuff but um well actually kind of mindfully because I had some milk.

00:09:29: Milk is really hydrating good for you.

00:09:32: Um stuff like that...I did want to have an egg earlier.

00:09:36: You know what I noticed?

00:09:37: Is listen to that.

00:09:39: Like if your body's like hey can I just have a quick little egg?

00:09:44: You have to listen that shit.

00:09:45: because if you don't then like whenever I do my point, you can do whatever you'd like.

00:09:53: but i just I'm trying to give advice.

00:09:55: I guess But everyone's different so Doesn't really count oh my god.

00:09:59: But but do listen to your body?

00:10:03: And we're saying like you know That doesn't go for it and everybody is like I need a drink of fifth alcohol right the fuck like whoa.

00:10:10: well Well, um that's your journey.

00:10:16: I guess actually I don't even know how much it fits about all this little mini not many Not a shot of Conroyo But like the next size up Pratt and Royals.

00:10:36: Can I write can I make alcohols pink Whitney being bottom tier?

00:10:42: Pink Whitney is horrifying!

00:10:45: I smelled somebody.

00:10:47: i cant remember when but i have such a keen nose for it now.

00:10:53: um like smelling alcohol off of people.

00:10:56: Like, I could smell that this person had been so drunk on pink with me-I don't know if they were drunk... I can't even remember where this happened by.. I can just remember the fact that I smelled it and was like what the fuck?

00:11:07: You chose to get drunk on Pink with

00:11:09: me?!

00:11:10: Like bro!

00:11:11: I'm calling the genuine cops And in this not even that uncommon like People who used to hang around maybe be like oh my god you got a bone whoopee bro.

00:11:20: because calm down before I call the cops like i'm gonna have to call somebody.

00:11:24: Like, i'm going to have to go soul?

00:11:27: i'm gona have to kill those

00:11:28: busters??

00:11:29: like...i don't know cuz what the fuck do we mean pink?

00:11:32: Pink wouldn't even irritate me when just thinking about it.

00:11:36: okay jinn and tequila is crazy.

00:11:42: now were not ranking them anymore cause all alcohols are kinda gross.

00:11:46: but Oh, Crown Royale's down there with Pink Whitney though.

00:11:49: They just are similar!

00:11:50: They're in similar family groups and I'm just sitting in the mall for a week bro.

00:11:57: And you better be careful if your drink ever-.

00:11:59: Holy shit that was the worst hangover of my life when i used to drink fucking half a gallon to a gallon of vodka a day.

00:12:06: Trust me what do I fucking say?

00:12:08: I don't even know who ever did that fucking meth at all.

00:12:11: That shit was insidious.

00:12:12: It is literally...I say you not it was drinking hand sanitizer.

00:12:18: And that coming from me.

00:12:19: Okay, my favorite you know wasn't one of my favorites.

00:12:24: Well I used to use to drink a lot of smear off Because it was the easiest to... Anyway what's not talking about?

00:12:44: Oh hair Yes!

00:12:46: So..I've noticed alot people have really dry hair and every time i think about this-and im like looking at them with hair and am thinking holy shit it feels like i'm literally sitting on top of a throne, on the white horse or another white horse.

00:12:59: Like I am not trying to be rude...like im NOT trying to b-i-t-c-h in the literal..like Im not trying tp mean you know what I mean?

00:13:12: and then like....I just don't even really like that word.

00:13:23: but thats just where they can remind me because every time I think about that kind of stuff its like.

00:13:29: Am I being like?

00:13:31: I feel like i'm being so judgmental and it's not even trying to be dodgy, im just saying.

00:13:34: And the same exact way about lotion!

00:13:41: It feels insane that people are putting hella fucking chemicals in and then they want everything as a chemical.

00:13:47: Okay great Oh I fucking love that for you.

00:13:53: Can we be fucking for real?

00:13:55: There is difference between synthetics.

00:14:02: Sorry But like dude that gonna be like.

00:14:06: some people are like I don't want chemical to my food and then people are label everything as can.

00:14:11: Can you just listen to their concerns because?

00:14:14: You know what the fuck they mean.

00:14:15: Well, thank you.

00:14:16: Know that they mean that red forty has you know links too causing aggressive Like receptors to go off in shit like fattening peoples brains into like cause anxiety and stuff.

00:14:29: It's a you know Like, you know what the fuck they're talking about.

00:14:32: and when people say that kind of shit it's like You're literally...like.

00:14:37: are you being paid by Big Pharma?

00:14:39: What the fuck.

00:14:40: How big were the scissors They had to use to cut that fat ass chick that they gave to you To stay shit-like?

00:14:45: That Just listen to people Holy crap Anyway.

00:14:50: Um But yeah I don't understand that because It's just like And i'll have beef with zinc Like I don' t have beef With natural Things that come out of the ground, but that's from kind to say like.

00:15:02: I don't understand why so many people are put our putting like Like these like form-related things when it's like whenever I genuinely feel like people should just be using But i can't tell you what they do.

00:15:15: It was like for me personally and I know everyone is different And there would be different requirements for different People dead ass using like sorry not that ass but are just using shea butter or coconut oil.

00:15:37: My hair is really, really healthy for the first time in such a long time and it's because I stopped using gels.

00:15:45: It's because i stopped um Using mousse And all this formulated stuff.

00:15:55: The only thing I put on my hair Is bar shampoo of our conditioner And then by KIT.CH.

00:16:04: and no I'm not being paid by them.

00:16:07: Anyway, i really have fourteen subscribers.

00:16:09: at the time of them saying this Im just- im very passionate about it because It feels like another thing that's rooted Like its rooted.

00:16:16: Our skin is our biggest organ in our body and hair Its like.. Our receiver.

00:16:22: You know what they mean?

00:16:23: Its one of things we need to keep.

00:16:25: Its like a gut Feels the energy as well.

00:16:30: Is there intuition?

00:16:31: Like.

00:16:31: it's one of things that helps us receive the intuition, I guess.

00:16:35: And so like when people they put all this stuff on their hair.

00:16:38: It's like keratin treatments and i'm pulling them melanin out of your hair.

00:16:43: Melanin holds information until like.

00:16:47: the fact that people have been taught to take That away from themselves is insane.

00:16:55: And like people, then they try to make their hair healthy again.

00:16:59: You took away one of the most key components in your hair structure Like you have to start over!

00:17:06: It's so fucked up I don't know... it is just fucked up.

00:17:11: It reminds me skin bleaching.

00:17:14: One day probably will look back at had hair bleaching and hair coloring The way that people looked at skin bleach today.

00:17:25: Now i dont feel same about tattoos.

00:17:30: if there even is a way to feel the same way about tattoos or piercings because you're not changing your entire skin color.

00:17:42: You are putting a story onto your body and I guess you could say that it's the same thing for hair color.

00:17:55: look, i don't know man...I'm just saying why do-i know how i feel?

00:18:02: And then people were like oh..you have virgin hair....you have Virgin Hair!

00:18:06: I didn't really know what that connects with but they're probably just my mind too.

00:18:19: As of hair is just something that because the idea of a virgin Is something as it's a woman who saves her virginity for one person so they can destroy It.

00:18:30: It is something They Can Be Destroyed.

00:18:32: and So The Idea Of Calling Your Hair Giving Her Hair, the concept of Virginity Something That Is Literally meant to be given To Someone Else And Then Pooped Out Of Existence Something Taken From You Like That's Just odd to me.

00:18:46: I guess i don't really know how to articulate.

00:18:48: why like why?

00:18:50: Like I don't...I feel there's more.

00:18:53: There was a, if the concept that i'm just talking about is shape-like theres another connecting line where you dont know how to articulate yet.

00:19:01: but thats the rough explanation of why it feels weird as well.

00:19:07: and then yeah..i saw this girl and she probably had heat damage cause shes talked about her not wearing curls for really long time.

00:19:15: But its like everyone.

00:19:18: hair is frizzy too is like, you are joking.

00:19:23: Like the hairstylist's hair is frizzy and dry!

00:19:26: Your hair is dry.

00:19:27: how can I trust you to do my hair?

00:19:32: And give me advice if- If YOU ARE CURTING YOURSELF Okay Because people always think...and then i see other hairstylists experiencing hair loss Who have like never liked it.

00:19:56: really experienced that before?

00:19:58: I don't know.

00:19:59: I just We need to start using things that we could put into our mouths and eat, And i understand That you Know?

00:20:11: I can't eat my shampoo conditioner or my body soap But Like It would be cool if I Could and there's definitely a way To do that.

00:20:19: but im Just saying like and like.

00:20:21: Im not Saying You Have to Be Like You Have To Do That.

00:20:23: Im Just Saying Why.

00:20:32: it's like the curl community sometimes feels like someone who is holding a large gash on their arm closed with Their hand and then saying to another person with a gas on there arm inflicted by white supremacy, and White ideological supremacy and systematic racism and Culturous like culturistic factors.

00:21:04: Like they used to make Black women cover up their hair because they were like, oh jealous.

00:21:08: I would not be surprised if the people behind pushing all these fucking drying ass products and Like telling it.

00:21:15: Like that The People who like convince woman?

00:21:18: Like Oh no you need this This this this in this this than is.

00:21:21: instead of just like shea butter coconut oil castor oil hobo oil as a those things are white Women Who want to hurt black and indigenous women like what the fuck Like.

00:21:35: I would not be surprised because you're shitting.

00:21:37: You're joking, you were fucking joking.

00:21:39: like it has to Be a fucking scheme?

00:21:41: It had to be a scheme set up by Todd and there's just no other fucking explanation.

00:21:46: There is NO other explanation Because if you still get a curl cast If you use shea butter or coconut oil The curls last for A long time Until the wash...I don't know..I washed my hair.

00:22:07: i dont have specific schedule.

00:22:09: the last... I hadn't washed my hair and like hmmm, hold on.

00:22:16: Like for four days?

00:22:20: And i had it up in a bun, like da-da.

00:22:23: all that stuff.

00:22:26: um It was still even though i had to open a bun for whole day.

00:22:30: All this stuff.

00:22:31: My hair is just getting healthier and healthier because im only using things so that my hair can actually eat Because I could actually eat it with the caveat of my soaps.

00:22:44: I can't eat those, but it's like after the shower.

00:22:49: that's the only thing i use and this in the conditioner is actually really important because i was experiencing a lot of breakage whenever i wasn't using anything well when i was only using shampoo on my hair.

00:22:58: that was really painful.

00:23:02: But... And its all about learning curves and stuff Like.

00:23:06: take what im saying with green assault figure out which works best for you.

00:23:13: It's just weird to me.

00:23:15: Its really, it always has been weird as fuck like ever since I've had the wherewithal thing about it i thought was concerning because its why are we putting so many chemicals on top of our bodies even though and you know what I mean?

00:23:34: And oh my god I shit you the fuck not!

00:23:36: So I have keratosis pularis right or prone sensitivity to like those little bumps that you get on your arms or your uh chest back whatever wherever you are, on legs.

00:23:49: Wherever you got those I have had those in middle school right?

00:23:54: And um...I had this one lotion That everyone was suggesting and it didn't have folic acid.

00:24:07: hold up.

00:24:07: let me tell ya what i had.

00:24:25: Hold on.

00:24:26: it comes in like salicylic acid Bro, it's out of the L. It literally was-it's AM Lactin!

00:24:43: That should bleach my skin like I'm gonna have to call the fucking bullies.

00:24:48: I was like wait...I looked at myself in the mirror one day and i was like what the fuck?

00:24:54: And it wasn't even helping any fucking thing that helped.

00:24:59: the best is Shelly butter coconut oil and surprisingly enough shea moisture Bar soap.

00:25:16: I forgot what the water.

00:25:18: it comes in a white box.

00:25:20: I think it's a coke.

00:25:21: Yeah, it's coconut something and bro that's helped a lot.

00:25:26: And when I do is I put The first thing you have to regular this hour shape around my face?

00:25:33: The white kind because of why is unrefined Which is which was also crazy me cuz it's like how does something become yellow whenever he refined?

00:25:44: anyway?

00:25:45: Um, but I've used both.

00:25:47: They're both great.

00:25:48: um on refined this has more Nutrients because it's not like heated and stuff like that.

00:25:54: um i don't know if its heated But Like It's Not like something like they Something Happens to Make the Change Colors.

00:26:03: um Anyway, I put shea butter in my face And then for the rest of My body I use coconut oil.

00:26:13: Because Its At first I started doing That because I used to put shea butter on my whole body and then mix it with coconut oil, And do that like not long ago.

00:26:24: But i had two five pound bags of shea butter.

00:26:30: Then when i ran out of those...I think i did that twice..i got about two rounds of them.

00:26:35: But the one where i run out of these lovely bags.... I started using coconut oil for rest of my skin and mixed castor oil in sometimes Anyway, but then... But right now I'm just using coconut oil on the rest of my body and it's been helped like with a combination of um The the soap.

00:27:11: It's really good And something like an africanet sponge.

00:27:15: i need to get another africanae sponge because Right Now have a knockoff.

00:27:19: Um those are Really great Because you can use them Like for like fifteen years something and you can like wash them.

00:27:25: they're made of actual fabric.

00:27:29: don't buy it from Walmart honestly, I bought this at a stock shop.

00:27:32: that's where i got the first time and it was like- like.

00:27:35: made sure its'a real person.

00:27:36: you know what i mean?

00:27:37: And then just buy it for them.

00:27:39: there is one girl who likes those videos she's showing me.

00:27:43: girls get these from Ghana.

00:27:45: here's me in Ghana so i'd recommend her.

00:27:49: but yeah also use fluoride in your toothpaste literally because i used to not use fluorid on my tooth in my toothpaste.

00:28:13: just cuz I grew up as a conspiracy theory kid and always heard of so much about fluoride.

00:28:19: now it's like I might as well is not.

00:28:23: Like, It doesn't matter.

00:28:24: And honestly whenever was getting toothpaste recently?

00:28:29: I didn't even care.

00:28:30: but I got Tom's toothpaste The one that I got happened to not have fluoride, but they do sell toothpaste with fluoride.

00:28:36: But i just didn't-I never got the one with fluorine?

00:28:39: That I didn't really think about it... ...I didn't care because all of the conspiracy theories was like okay well doesn't ever really matter Like.. I didn' t care either or It's kinda like.

00:28:49: Also can we talk abut something?

00:28:52: Okay!

00:28:52: I have vaccines

00:28:53: right?!

00:28:54: I have ummm.

00:28:55: One more thing I need to do.

00:28:56: thats like meningitis or

00:28:59: something??

00:29:01: That I'd NEVER governor on a sixteen cause like I was figuring out what kind of alcohol i liked when i was sixteen.

00:29:11: But there is something that would like to say about them.

00:29:17: as a vaccinated person, I do think people are kinda dismissive whenever they show valid concerns about modern healthcare specifically black and brown people because I'll be watching like Some it is.

00:29:46: I will watch things at a doctor something like debate with like twenty people who are like anti-vaxxers And that's like, i think though we need to address the root cause of why People were so concerned about that kind of stuff even if they don't understand.

00:30:01: That's Why They're Concerned About It.

00:30:03: Maybe their ancestor was one of the science, like if it's a white part maybe there ancestors were like German scientist or Nazi scientists.

00:30:11: Or Israeli...or American scientist who did experiments on indigenous peoples that land and you know they used to involuntarily sterilize indigenous women at their health care appointments.

00:30:35: They, without their consent they did not know that they were being you know hurt.

00:30:41: in this way I think there is a healthy distrust um...that lives within everyone i hope of modern healthcare.

00:30:53: simply if not because of that but-because simply we are meant to have A village Shaman, we are meant to have a village medicine woman medicine man medicine person and We're meant to know them for our entire lives like.

00:31:11: We are meant To You Know get-to-know our bodies And we are mean too understand What?

00:31:21: We need to do to heal ourselves as well and that's not taught in schools because in school they just teach you like They don't really teach you a lot of things about that and I just-I feel like they should do that for sure.

00:31:38: Like, it'd be more helpful in general if people actually knew more about their own anatomy About spiritual physicality And how pain In the emotional body can translate to Physical ailments How to soothe those ailments?

00:32:02: heal those pains and how to talk about their feelings so that it doesn't get trapped in stored inside of there hips back shoulders feet knees everything.

00:32:17: So, everything on our body like... Our mind and our body are not- they're the same thing because every part of our body is our mind as well.

00:32:28: That's another thing why that irks me also, like all the chemicals.

00:32:33: And there is a difference between chemicals and plants.

00:32:35: I actually am just done...I don't want to be like oh you know what i mean.

00:32:38: no There is a different between chemical and plant okay?

00:32:41: Not too much about that because it's crazy!

00:32:45: Like theres a difference being something that was concocted in our lab and something that grew out of ground.

00:32:56: Our heart has neurons.

00:32:58: Our uterus has neurons, stomach and intestines, the liver everything in our body has neurons teeth you know.

00:33:10: so yeah all communicating So yeah.

00:33:22: And like this syphilis experiment when they told black men that They were being tested for bad blood and they injected them with syphillis to see what would happen?

00:33:34: and just studied them.

00:33:37: Nazi experimentation was just the tip of what they do, And that is why I think there's a healthy amount of distrust in everyone Of this modern experimental without consent based quote-unquote medicine.

00:33:59: There comes another point Illnesses and disease like diseases sickness is that doctors will throw their hands up And give-up, and the whole you know making them more comfortable.

00:34:23: It's all they can do in it.

00:34:25: I do believe them but That's All They Can Do because Whenever You Study How to What It Takes To Kill Something You Never Learned how To Keep something Alive And that is at the core what America and Western medicine has done.

00:34:47: I mean, most of things we know about hypothermia comes from putting prisoners into- prisoners...of The Holocaust Into the cold and watching them die like i just think there's nothing really.

00:35:06: There's a cap to what can be understood whenever the learning basis is so violent and even you know, modern medications things that weren't created in a lab by nazi scientists or evil racists stuff like if u have to kill hundreds of mice.

00:35:35: same thing applies.

00:35:38: And the thing is, especially because it's like you might be like.

00:35:40: well then how are they gonna figure out?

00:35:42: How do I know?

00:35:44: we already now There our answers to everything but they just label.

00:35:49: They just discarded as a pseudoscience.

00:35:53: They don't listen to people in China and they don't Listen to Africa or India Because most of those things are under the labels of pseudoscience because it either has to deal with the energy that flows through our body in correlation to that sickness and Master medicine doesn't really believe in them.

00:36:21: The idea is already so disconnected from humanity That I think as a society, people who decide these kinds don't Understand because they are disconnected from their humanity like if you think about the people who are in charge of Like Pharmaceutical companies for example, I guess.

00:36:52: The People Who Are You Know?

00:36:54: Doing Some Research but not all.

00:36:58: All Types Of People Do research.

00:37:00: you know independent Research Grant-funded Research College thesis or something like that research, you know what I mean?

00:37:10: There's all kinds of research.

00:37:11: I just think an example.

00:37:14: this will be the fact people are often... You get my point.

00:37:38: i think The inherent structure of America is in the world healthy and happy.

00:38:41: It reminded me I was trying to think of a way to explain like the metaphor and i thought back To The Metaphor Of The Holding, The Arm Multipleading And Then Giving Suggestions.

00:38:52: Just Someone Else Even Though it's Like You Can't even...like you haven't helped yourself yet.You Haven'T put..you know You Haven'T Cleaned Out Your Wound You Haven't Wrapped It.

00:39:09: Its Not Healing Yet And You're Telling Someone Else How To Heal.

00:39:13: But its like.

00:39:14: you need that hand-on experience and it doesn't have to come from chopping off your arm, because this just didn't work.

00:39:23: The arm will stop healing once its not attached to the body.

00:39:38: We have think of things in a perspective on how we can help someone bloom or grow like a plant.

00:40:51: It's also such an illusion I'm thinking about... personal experiences with like hairdressers and stuff like that.

00:41:05: And whenever you still put gel stuff on my hair, your hair holds the curl because um... Your hair is healthy!

00:41:29: Whenever the hair's brittle or dry it makes it harder for the curl to be itself.

00:41:37: You know what I mean?

00:41:40: Just like whenever your skin is dry, it's uncomfortable to- think about a day where you wash your hands a bunch of times.

00:41:47: It becomes uncomfortable to close and open their hand all the way.

00:42:04: And if you're wondering because I just thought about this Some people's curly hair... Like as i was thinking about diffusers.

00:42:27: but honestly Even that like I don't know.

00:42:30: Like, i just feel and im not saying you dont have curly hair If use a diffuser Because the curl wouldn't hold.

00:42:38: if-if u used a diffusor And you didn't have curly hairs.

00:42:43: So Im just saying every time I see one of those things with it's finger curls or You go through every section Of your hair to individually Curl it?

00:43:10: solution to that is just let it dry in like a microfiber cloth, like scooped up into the base of your scalp and then wrapped around.

00:43:26: You're wrapped around either wrap like a scarf?

00:43:33: And I don't know.

00:43:34: maybe wash... For that kind of hair too i feel like the literal tiniest bit of coconut oil Would be like I'm gonna say tiniest.

00:43:47: I mean the size of a dime The size of adime and the height Of?

00:43:54: The height of what,the height of a steak french fry depending on how much here you have.

00:44:08: But i think that could help your hair Like because i think What helps with the curls is whenever the follicles are able to soak up That moisture And then be plump Then curl around Same thing with like the dehydrated hand thing, you know they mean same.

00:44:23: Like it's keratin.

00:44:46: But people can do whatever They want.

00:44:48: because in my head I was like thinking about well People will do like people Will Do what?

00:44:57: They Want to do.

00:44:58: You Know What i Mean?

00:44:59: i don't think that they Can like Because i'm Thinking About that i Was like wait Well some people bomb people so i Don't Think of something That they can do.

00:45:07: i think there is Something that they want To do In a very ill advised Life causes them pain.

00:45:22: Like I think my people also don't realize is like.

00:45:25: well, People I'm say people as in As if i am talking to everyone on this planet.

00:45:30: but other people will definitely Realize it Even just the sense of calling someone a puppet.

00:45:38: Do you see that man?

00:45:39: On the screen Just a puppet puts her.

00:45:41: never seen This drinks Calling it all down inside Man.

00:45:50: That's different kind of greed Like that kind of mentality like greed and doing things out-of-greed Specifically but not limited to the war market.

00:46:16: People in that, they are so hyper aware Except for people who were actually experiencing it.

00:46:31: But is a different kind of thing because it's like, you know It's one thing to be.

00:46:38: I don't want to go the carnival Because today is actually the fourth of July.

00:46:42: and what if someone decides To become so many what-ifs living in America?

00:46:53: But that person who doesn't care about gun laws understands That would be much safer If people just had therapy like, had to have a mental health check.

00:47:08: And I don't think that's already a thing.

00:47:09: but maybe it's not a thing?

00:47:11: I dunno...I dont' think its THAT big of a thing!

00:47:14: But if you have a gun then YOU HAVE TO GO TO THERAPY indefinitely.

00:47:19: You know what i mean?

00:47:22: They just don't acknowledge that because they don't really care in the sense of not caring.

00:47:28: It is their funding system that could hurt them and even though allowing yourself to be willingly aware of, they are aware regardless.

00:47:41: Like that's what I mean like the mind and body are one so they feel it And...I don't think that can produce happiness.

00:47:52: i dont' think people who kill people for reasons of insanity Because biblical rage is something that we have seen over and over, and over again And it's always the same tragic.

00:48:12: They feel justified because in The Bible Some of the bible needs to be seen as a mythology like legend Like brother's grim fairytale Something to be wary Of.

00:48:28: You know what I mean?

00:48:29: That whole thing knows arc or its God.

00:48:34: You know this whole big flood and god have you guys ever thought that maybe like because the flood did happen.

00:48:40: Like there's Geographical evidence or argue archaeological evidence of it happened in like the earth.

00:48:49: But do you guys everything about the fact is like okay?

00:48:52: Well, but-but you know Do not see the similar similarities between you know, that story and like the origin of Odin.

00:49:07: You know what I mean?

00:49:08: Like- And i'm not saying they're not real at all!

00:49:15: I'm just saying...I think sometimes these things that happen aren't meant to be seen as something that you need to fear.

00:49:30: it's more an expression or emotion.

00:49:35: things were going on that you know the earth literally flooded and like i don't know, I feel it's kind of abstract even as im saying it.

00:50:07: that maybe the person who wrote or transcribed it to English because he was edited, there used to be pictures and notes.

00:50:18: It's a diary of sorts!

00:50:20: There were many personal diaries And all personality was taken away from him.

00:50:25: whenever it was transcribed for King James He literally said take-away anything subversive And and then also like think about what happened to Jesus.

00:50:38: Like, jesus was literally killed by like kings and shit.

00:50:42: You know what I mean?

00:50:44: What the fuck it would be... It's exactly what it is.

00:50:49: i don't have to even compare that-I feel like That's understandable.

00:50:53: Um But yeah, I mean think about it.

00:50:59: maybe that's just something that Someone felt like it was especially if they were writing for the bible Because I'm pretty sure What's that?

00:51:10: No, it was Old Testament.

00:51:13: There is just so much going on and I think people in slavery were happening at the time too... Someone saw something tragic And they possibly justified it.

00:51:35: It had to happen because you know People are gone crazy like it was insane.

00:51:42: You know they mean as I say that it's like, I don't understand Why people?

00:51:55: Don't understand terrorism because that in and of itself was terrorism.

00:51:59: Like if like you know what I mean.

00:52:02: Like it was meant to inflict terror.

00:52:04: People are meant to be afraid of God In the traditional sense.

00:52:09: um people there's a lot stuff like fear god Terror Christianity.

00:52:21: Historically the spanish inquisition Torture like I used to see so much about torture and you guys would not even believe Like this shit that they use to do was so crazy just like Just crazy.

00:52:34: It's ghoul Ghoulistic shit To people And it's a good kill them anyway, like why the fuck are we doing all That bullshit?

00:52:41: Like just did-it Was masochism Because They It was something that they were actually open to because there weren't a lot of sex.

00:52:53: They weren't allowed do anything except for be violent, Because thats what their god did.

00:53:01: So thats where the derived pleasure from and I think that thing still sticks today.

00:53:06: Not even not long ago people were burning crosses in front lawns Of black people.

00:53:13: Like Christianity has always since its become public Because it used to be secretive.

00:53:18: religion mind you Used to be a seeker used to be persecuted and put to death if you're Christian mind You.

00:53:25: so we have to be mindful about the fact that they died at The fact it is mass produced.

00:53:30: now It might as well.

00:53:32: Be a book of folklore because it is no longer A first-hand account, it has been edited.

00:53:42: Anyway.

00:53:49: Yeah I just tell anyway you get my point.

00:53:55: i don't need to keep saying because i'm just continuing to think about that.

00:54:00: like, I thought again another wave of thoughts on how violent this slave dungeon isn't gonna be.

00:54:09: you know it was on top of the dungeon?

00:54:11: a church with a fucking cement pipe going... they would put hundred people in there to die and then a cement pipe will go exactly where.

00:54:24: no standing room Like.

00:54:27: they'll be sitting in there.

00:54:28: They will be standing on their own feces and their own vomit, in their own urine until the last person passed away.

00:54:35: And then some people would get out and be sent on slave ships to America.

00:54:46: Some people would jump from the slave ships because they weren't gonna be taken.

00:54:54: Anyway that's what feels so sadistic about people demonizing suicide.

00:55:05: It's like a lot of the time, I think about self-immolation people jumping from slave ships.

00:55:13: And then i think about Christianity and how it was edited.

00:55:16: what is used for in their context or racism.

00:55:20: That just feels sadistic.

00:55:21: You know what I mean?

00:55:24: To be.

00:55:25: if you escape this machine If you dare try to alleviate that pain Like, you're going to a very bad place.

00:55:38: And your never gonna feel pee like.

00:55:39: that's horrible!

00:55:40: Your never- like.

00:55:41: tell me what they are not ever gonna feel peace if they don't commit their lives being someone else's slave?

00:55:47: and thats true even through this day.

00:55:49: I mean um... Cause money is slavery with the fucking boat on it.

00:55:54: Money is slavery in context of well.. You can go places If u want too But ur shall bound ball n chain To dat shit.

00:56:03: Like you know, they mean like to in order to go to those places.

00:56:06: Some people have never left their hometowns.

00:56:08: I think look You know what?

00:56:09: They mean like you can travel the world But you have to make like telling that they had to make money.

00:56:13: and like this arbitrary Concept Money is a religion.

00:56:18: You don't even mean that everybody follows So because they are forced to do it.

00:56:23: It's like the Spanish fucking inquisition.

00:56:25: if we don't do it then you will...it's like different font of the Spanish Inquisition but no different psychologically in the subtleties of scariness that it induces.

00:56:43: I've heard people talk about like, the feeling of poverty being... feeling you're at war.

00:56:48: It gives me these same mental problems because it takes away your stability on the ground and so crazy as well.

00:56:57: The property taxes on land was stolen detaining and deporting people to a more southern point of this continent, one of the people who are doing reporting or from fucking Sweden.

00:57:15: You go back honestly like get out!

00:57:18: Like if you're- If you were part of ICE or support ICE, YOU need to go back to your home country.

00:57:25: Stop hurting indigenous people.

00:57:29: stop hurting black people Because and this isn't applied to black people because because America has made Black.

00:57:36: Have you have bro Sudan?

00:57:38: Congo like slavery never stopped in the context of the traditional sense In Africa, And in Like tech companies Apple Every single technology takes cobalt Colton an electrical Manufacturing.

00:57:57: You know who minds those children in Congo.